Sometimes you have to let things go. Sometimes things leave you behind, or you have to leave them behind, and then you're left feelings like you're alone.
But you still have yo let it go.
I fell in love for the first time this year. I had friends, and I shared that love. A lot. That's what happens, I guess, when you fall in love. You can't just pretend it doesn't exist. Even to people who might hate it, you can't just not love, even if it's just acting.
I felt heartbreak for the first time this year too, just a little taste of it. It was complicated. I got him in trouble, and boy, he resented it. It's not the best feeling in the world when the one you love thinks you don't love him and hates you for it.
I was lucky. I only felt constant pain for a week.
He's felt constant pain for much longer than that.
Still, we made up.
Our separation came slower than it could have. We only lasted two months. The break up was gentle, just a side conversation in between classes. He was dating someone else, a boy named ----.
We'd both seen it coming long ago, so it didn't hurt as much as it could've. We hugged. We smiled. I flipped him off when he bashed my Hetalia ship.
I cried a little, on my own, but it was little, so little.
When you first love someone, you can't keep it to yourself. He didn't. He only talked about ----. I could see them making out when I walked past them during lunch.
It didn't hurt.
