Say hello to me...

You know, I wonder...
Why do we care so much?
That's a stupid question. We care because we do.

(Has anyone seen the new Ash for the new Pokemon anime in Alola? He looks STUPID! Poor Ash)

Say hello to me. Who am I? I'm the girl who tried to climb the wall. I'm the girl who failed, but in trying, I passed. Now my life means so much more, because even though I'm still trapped here, at least I tried. I've got the scars and cuts to prove it. And now? Now, I know how to pretend that I succeeded, because when I climbed, I got a glimpse of the outside world. I got a glimpse of all the wonderfulness outside, and I know that no matter what, I don't live at the edge of the world. I tried to leave, but what I found was that there is nowhere to leave. Climbing the walls outside of my castle--my safety--was stupid, but it was worth it. Now I know that I am me.

I mean, who else can say that they live in the castle that used to be on the edge of the cliff that is our world?
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Say hello to me, the girl with no hope. Everything sucks. I hate the world, I hate life, I hate everything! The person I used to turn to has started to fade away. Every time I try to grab hold, all I get is a handful of fog. I'd like to turn to my piano, but it's not that easy. I turn that way, and the stress hits me in the face. I hate performing more than anything else. The fear! It's the worst. Everytime I get up on that stage, put my fingers on that strange piano that hundreds of strangers have played before me, bow to the audience, play? It's like someone reaches into my heart and squeezes- and never lets go.
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Say hello to me, the girl who doesn't care. You know what? I don't care. I don't care anymore that the only person outside of my family that I would be willing to die for is nearly gone. I can survive on my own! I really can. If only you were here to believe me...
Okay, fine. I'm not the girl who doesn't care. I'm the girl who wishes and lies that she doesn't care. Because that's better than facing what's real.
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Say hello to me, the girl who doesn't exist. ..................................................................................................................................
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I love you all.
I hate you all.
I don't care.
I care.
I'm blind.
I saw.
Say hello to me, the girl of contradictions.
Say hello to me, the most confused of them all.
Say hello to me, the loneliest of them all.
Can we be friends?
Say hello to me, the most childish of them all.
I'll give all that I have to keep you from fading away.
Say hello to me, the most desperate of them all.



But most of all? Say hello to me, the most hopeful of them all.
Because I can say that I don't care, that I can't see, that I don't exist, that I hate everything, but no matter what, it's hope that keeps me going.
It's hope.
Because truth is, a lot of people say that hope is stupid, that it only makes reality hurt more... It's true. It does hurt more. But when sometimes it feels like that's all there is, it's okay to cling to hope.
Cause truth is, hope isn't all there is. I, some random person on the internet with nothing better to do, believe in you. That's almost nothing, but it's something. There has to be something else holding you down, even if you don't realize it. So you cling to hope for a better tomorrow. You cling to the hope that that person whose fading away wil unfade. You cling to the hope that everything will be better.

So for those of you who have sucky lives, don't give up.
Don't.
Or else I will hate you for all eternity...
Just kidding!
That didn't help at all, huh.....
Whatever.